By Huong Nguyen (inspired by a Malaysian Saint Harridan fan)

Clothing is a form of social revolution. Don’t believe me? Take a look at my elementary school pictures. (No, don't, really.) Every year on Picture Day, my dad would force me to wear a dress. I would resist, vehemently. An epic David-and-Goliath struggle would ensue, with lots of crying, yelling, and kicking (mostly by me). Little David (me) would plead: "Why do I have to wear a dress? It's uncomfortable. I don't look like myself in it!" Gigantic Goliath (Dad) would respond: "Girls wear dresses. Why don't you want to wear a dress? You look like a boy in those clothes!"

The end result would invariably be a photo of me, with no dress, sporting such red puffy eyes that I could barely see out of them (I'm Asian, after all) and a strained but triumphant smile. Yes!!! Many might think, from looking at those photos, that I simply had some generic "bad" mornings. For me, those photos represented small but hard-won battles for recognition, acceptance, and respect for my clothing choices. Little did I know, however, fighting my dad was only the beginning of many future battles with others involving clothing and identity.

In the United States, LGBT folks (the term used inclusively) have recently made great strides toward obtaining legal protections for themselves and their families. At the end of 2010, the ban against gays and lesbians serving in the military, or the so-called “Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell” Policy, was finally repealed. Although transgender service members were excluded from that repeal, organizations such as OutServe-SLDN are actively working to clear a path for those service members to serve their country openly and with dignity.

In this recent election, marriage equality became a reality in three more states – Maryland, Washington, and Maine. That was a watershed moment, as it was the first time state voters directly approved marriage equality through the ballot box. This result stood in stark contrast to previous elections, during which voters cast ballots against marriage equality in a total of thirty-two states.  Currently, a handful of court cases are making their way through the court systems, with the hope that the United States Supreme Court will finally declare marriage equality the law of the land.

Our celebration of these achievements is never without a touch of soberness. Obtaining these rights are necessary, but not sufficient, to gain full recognition, acceptance, and respect from our family, friends, and communities. For over a decade and a half, I’ve worked pro bono to help repeal the “Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell” Policy, support marriage equality, and gain political asylum for those discriminated against in their home countries based on their sexual orientation. I’ve learned that winning cases or changing the letter of the law can only get you so far. Events outside the courtrooms and legislative halls matter quite a bit.

Out there, the world is not safe for us. Terribly ill informed and misguided folks frequently commit violence against our bodies and minds. Brandon Teena, Gwen Araujo, and others paid dearly with their lives, because they each dared to live their truth. Incessantly bullied, Rafael Morelos, Jamey Rodemeyer, and others tragically took their own lives before they were old enough to have any positive understanding of themselves. Fortunately, some of us have escaped such hatred with physical scars, while others have suffered emotional scars that are as deep and cutting as any knife wound.

Saint Harridan has borne witness to the retelling of some of these battle scars. Despite – or in spite of – such scars, your remarkable level of excitement for the company is a testament to your resiliency and your unwavering hope that tomorrow will be a better day.

You have told us your frustration and despair with trying to find clothes that reflect your true identity, inside and out.
I've been looking for a company/brand like this for.. well, forever. I don't look "butch" in the traditional sense. I have long crazy curly hair (if I cut it short, it'd be a poofy mess) and I'm pretty small. If you didn't know me, you might think I look kind of femme. But I've never been comfortable in "girl" clothes. I'm always trying to find suits and guy's clothes, but I'm so small that everything looks ridiculous on me. If it weren't for these pesky boobs I'd just shop in the little boy's section, but because of my chest even those clothes don't fit right.

My girlfriend is a beautiful, amazing, incredibly sexy "femme." She tries to take me shopping for clothes that I will feel comfortable in, but most of the time I end up frustrated and/or crying. I just don't feel like myself in women's clothes, but I'm too small to fit in men's clothes. I thought I would have to resign myself to Hane's small white v-necks and jeans forever; the pressure of shopping and feeling so uncomfortable in my own skin was just becoming too much. It sucks to sit in a dressing room and cry because you feel like you will never be able to outwardly look how you feel on the inside. And then I came across your website. And my heart is so filled with joy, words can't even begin to describe it. This company seems to be what I've been searching for for years. A place where a 5'3, size 6 lesbian can dress how she feels without looking like a five year old who rummaged through her father's closet. A place where I can finally find the look that will make me feel like a stud. Thank you for working so hard on this. I'm looking forward to it more than you can imagine.
We also heard the incredible feeling you get when the clothes you wear reflect your true self.  

I'm Britt. I am 18 years old and just recently found out about your site. I'm ECSTATIC! I have always been attracted to suits since I was a young girl. I hated dresses all my life growing up. When I met my girl in 2010 I decided to come out to my family so that I could be true to myself and dress the way I wanted. I want to be seen on the outside, how I feel on the inside. The first time I put on a pair of mens slacks, a white long sleeve dress shirt and vest I felt incredible. I never feel comfortable in anything else. I try to wear baggy shirts that hide my chest but I never feel that confidence I get when I put on dress clothes. I feel so handsome and confident. I always dress up for my job interviews and I instantly feel that confidence boost I need. I've recently been overcoming depression and some days I put on my vest and slacks just to dress up at home and feel better about myself. Your suits are going to be a life changer for me, I just know it. I watch the Ellen show everyday and I want to dress just as shnazzy as Ellen :) … You are opening a new world for us in the queer community and I know I will forever be grateful. Thank you for everything you have done and have in store for us!
For some of you who may not have the opportunity to wear our clothes in public for fear of persecution, we are tremendously humbled and honored for this opportunity to serve you too. You are right: “It’s just clothes, but it’s more than clothes.”
I'm a kid from a small Asian country called Malaysia, I know this must be very strange, but I just feel I needed to tell you that what you're doing is an amazing thing.

I don't know if you know this, but in my country, homosexuality and transexuality can still be persecuted by the law. The people are bigoted and though views are changing, its still a slow process and there isn't a day when I wonder when people would be free to dress and act however they wish without being thought of as freaks, or aberrations. 

What you're doing, its just, brilliant. I'm not sure how to say this, because its just clothes but its more then clothes. Its knowing that one day, maybe one long day in the future something as simple as a three piece suit would be mainstream. That the basic act of wearing what you want no matter what size or gender you are would be available to everyone else. 

That's why you shouldn't quit even if things get hard. You're going to be spectacular. I'm just excited to watch.
To say that a need exists for quality men’s-styled clothing and accessories that fit a woman’s body is an understatement. There is a groundswell of yearning from butch women and transmen to be seen for who they really are. The long-felt need of butch women and transmen for clothing that matches their inner identity with the outer selves has largely been ignored by the fashion industry. Saint Harridan’s primary mission is to serve that need.

Saint Harridan believes that a real-life butch woman or transman in a well-fitted power suit is nothing less than revolutionary. Seeing that butch woman, we can imagine her walking into workplaces, board rooms, court rooms, and interviews, steeped in confidence and commanding respect from those around her. Seeing that transman, we can imagine the challenges – rejections of his identity by family, friends, colleagues, or places of worship – that he had to overcome in order to get where he is. And seeing both of them, we can imagine that they, by virtue of being survivors, represent a big fuck-you to those who doubted or denied their existence and identity.

Clothing is a social revolution. Join us. 
 


Comments

Pinky
11/21/2012 5:51pm

I also hated dresses as a kid. I hated gender roles for forcing me to dress a certain way, and began wearing guys' clothes in high school. Unfortunately, I want to be a teacher, and showing up for interviews in dress shirts that don't fit is not recommended. I hope your business goes well. I may visit your shop frequently in the next several years.

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Kat
11/28/2012 10:45am

I've been following the Saint Harridan story for a couple of months now, and wish this had been around when I was struggling to find a suit last year. I identify as female, and often switch between tomboy casual and more feminine looks, but have always loved the clean lines and masculinity found in a classic menswear suit. I have tried on a few in stores, loving how it felt to wear a jacket or waist coat, and how *I* felt inside it, despite the poor fit - taller, prouder, more confident, and yes, a little more powerful. Like I could take on anything. Yet, when approached by salespersons, their attitude quickly turned sour when I told them I wasn't shopping for a boyfriend/husband, but for myself. It was extremely discouraging and I gave up hope of ever owning a beautiful suit of my own.

Then this came along and made me hope that, one day, I too could look as good in a suit as the three attractive models on Saint Harridan's website! I gave up modeling years ago, but I'd do it again in a heartbeat just to wear a suit from this line.

That said, I just backed the kickstarter with the little bit I could - unemployed in this economy means I couldn't pledge a full suit - but hope to see more items for sale once it gets off the ground. I hope with all my might that this will succeed and prosper.

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Mori
11/28/2012 2:56pm

I just got linked to your kickstarter yesterday, and dearly wish I could afford to back for a full suit. I'm not trans, nor would I consider myself terribly butch, but for years now I've wanted a men's style suit that actually, properly fit _me_. I've always loved the elegant, classic lines of a traditional suit, and really feel that almost anyone can look great in one.

I am exceedingly happy that you folks exist, and hope that someday I can add you to my wardrobe.

Thank you.

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Huong
11/29/2012 1:28pm

Thank you for your heartfelt stories! They provide inspiration for Saint Harridan to march forward. Know that economic issues you raised are seriously considered here. That you are currently of limited means and you have pledged to Kickstarter suggest to us about what kind of company you would like Saint Harridan to grow up to be. Duly noted!

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01/16/2013 6:48am

I am so excited to see this and was disappointed to have missed your kickstarter. This is such a beautiful idea. I can relate very much to your photo day experience. To this day I feel uncomfortable, itchy, awkward and all of those other words for "OMG everyone is staring at me, which I normally kind of like but right now I want to die". I've long wanted a nice fitting suit but I'm so top heavy I tend to either end up with a jacket that won't close or shoulders like a linebacker. Looking forward to someday ordering a suit from you and your imminent success.

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03/22/2013 4:56am

I am glad and excited reading through your blog. The sharing on this site has helped me to learn and get required information about beautiful dress and dress codes around the world. It is sad to read that people are discriminated according to the type of dresses they wear. I appreciate your good work.

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